Dare:
I'm to write out 2 lists. ONe with all the positive things about David and one with all the negative. They need to be on separate sheets and then put away for another day. In the meantime I'm to pick a positive attribute from the first list and thank David for having this characteristic.
David has so many positive characteristics that this part will be easy. They are also plenty of things about him that annoy me, but I have a hard time expressing them because it's mean. Does that mean they aren't really there to irritate me? No, they're there, I just don't voice them. So this one will be tough, and mean. These are the things that when I find myself thinking about them, I've gone to the depreciation room. So, I need to shut that door and only think of the positive things, and there are so many.
Also, still need to do all the things from the past days, including not being irritated. This is getting tough.
Results:
Okay, I made lists. The mean list was hard to do. I'm not telling you a thing that is on this list because they mean nothing. But the good list was much longer and made me feel better.
Still failing at not getting irritated. Had 4 extra kids over for the day (and over night). Hard not to be irritated and when I'm irritated, hard not to take it out on David. David ended up going to church to cook for our anniversary party. I ended up staying home because along with extra kids, I was not feeling so hot. So, David didn't end up having to listen to me complain. But, that is not the goal.
Man, I've got to try harder - well, maybe I need to stop trying and let God handle it.
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