Dare:
Take time to pray through my areas of wrongdoing. Ask for God's forgiveness, then humble myself enough to admit them to David. Do it sincerely and truthfully. Ask David for forgiveness as well. No matter how he responds, make sure I cover my responsibility in love. Evein if they respond with criticism, accept it be receiving it as counsel.
Man, I knew it! As soon as I read about needing to forgive David, I knew it would be turned around to talk about things I need to be forgiven for. There are no BIG things but millions on millions of little things. My biggest problem is in my attitude. Asking God for forgiveness isn't tough, he already knows my faults, but asking David. Whoa, that's going to be tougher.
Results:
I honestly can't think of anything major, but is needing forgiveness kind of like sin? Is the little thing you need forgiveness the same as the big thing you need to be forgiven for? After all, sin is sin. Something you need to be forgiven for is sin, and it's all filth to God so let me rethink this for tomorrow.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Day 25 - Love Dare - Love Forgives
Dare:
Whatever you haven't forgiven in David, forgive it today. Let it go. Say from my heart, "I choose to forgive."
There are things I think about in the past, but have I not forgiven David for them? It's not that I dwell on them. The thought of these things only comes up once in a long, long while, not even once a year. What feelings do they create in me when they come up? I don't hold them over David's head. They happened so long ago, almost a different lifetime. Yet, I still harbor bad feelings about them. I don't think I ever actually forgave David for them, just kind of brushed them under a rug. I guess it's time to really say from my heart, I choose to forgive these things.
Results:
It was such a busy, busy day that I didn't have time to even think about forgiveness. That also means I didn't think about anything that David needed forgiveness about. Well, my weekend starts tonight (I'm off on Fridays) and I need to take time to pray and really concentrate on forgiving David. SOme of it just seems so silly, because this stuff was all 30 years ago. I really don't think about it. But I guess it's there in the background, so it needs to be done.
Whatever you haven't forgiven in David, forgive it today. Let it go. Say from my heart, "I choose to forgive."
There are things I think about in the past, but have I not forgiven David for them? It's not that I dwell on them. The thought of these things only comes up once in a long, long while, not even once a year. What feelings do they create in me when they come up? I don't hold them over David's head. They happened so long ago, almost a different lifetime. Yet, I still harbor bad feelings about them. I don't think I ever actually forgave David for them, just kind of brushed them under a rug. I guess it's time to really say from my heart, I choose to forgive these things.
Results:
It was such a busy, busy day that I didn't have time to even think about forgiveness. That also means I didn't think about anything that David needed forgiveness about. Well, my weekend starts tonight (I'm off on Fridays) and I need to take time to pray and really concentrate on forgiving David. SOme of it just seems so silly, because this stuff was all 30 years ago. I really don't think about it. But I guess it's there in the background, so it needs to be done.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Day 24 - Love Dare - Love vs. Lust
Dare:
End it now. Identify every object of lust in my life and remove it. Single out every lie I've swallowed in pursuing forbidden pleasure and reject it.
I read today's title and immediately thought of, well, you know what the word lust conjures up. At first I thought, okay, not a problem, but, whoa, this is a big thing. I know I lust for things. When I'm depressed I want to spend money. It's an automatic reaction. I'm going to spend some time really praying for God to reveal to me the other things I lust so I can reject them.
Results:
God has the best sense of humor ever. Yesterday I wrote that I'm giving up Bejeweled Blitz because it occupies too much of my time. Well yesterday I was notified that I received 1,000,000 points in the weekly drawing. Points can be used to buy bonuses during the game and, yes, it's a whopping amount of points. Now these points are going to sit there wasted, always tempting me. Hmmm, maybe it was Satan that arranged for the points. Either way, I am determined that I will keep that dare and not go near Bejeweled Blitz.
I'm continuing to pray about things I lust after. This will probably be an ongoing thing. I'm going to pray that God continues to reveal to me when something I'm thinking about or am about to do is to satisfy my lust and to help direct back to my true love, my husband.
End it now. Identify every object of lust in my life and remove it. Single out every lie I've swallowed in pursuing forbidden pleasure and reject it.
I read today's title and immediately thought of, well, you know what the word lust conjures up. At first I thought, okay, not a problem, but, whoa, this is a big thing. I know I lust for things. When I'm depressed I want to spend money. It's an automatic reaction. I'm going to spend some time really praying for God to reveal to me the other things I lust so I can reject them.
Results:
God has the best sense of humor ever. Yesterday I wrote that I'm giving up Bejeweled Blitz because it occupies too much of my time. Well yesterday I was notified that I received 1,000,000 points in the weekly drawing. Points can be used to buy bonuses during the game and, yes, it's a whopping amount of points. Now these points are going to sit there wasted, always tempting me. Hmmm, maybe it was Satan that arranged for the points. Either way, I am determined that I will keep that dare and not go near Bejeweled Blitz.
I'm continuing to pray about things I lust after. This will probably be an ongoing thing. I'm going to pray that God continues to reveal to me when something I'm thinking about or am about to do is to satisfy my lust and to help direct back to my true love, my husband.
Day 23 - Love Dare - Love Always Protects
Dare:
Remove anything that is hindering our relationship, any addiction or influence that's stealing my affection and turning my heart away from David.
Well, one thing comes to mind immediately - BEJEWLED BLITZ has got to go. I am addicted to this game and will play it rather than spend time with David. One of my excuses is that it helps me kep my wits and makes me think. Well, baloney, it's just plain fun, but it steals time away from my relationship, so, goodnight sweet Bejewled Blitz, parting is such deep sorrow (it's not sweet, I'll miss it and plan on not coming back).
Result:
I so want to play Bejewled, but know I need to stay away. Successful so far. Pray for me, I'm an addict.
Remove anything that is hindering our relationship, any addiction or influence that's stealing my affection and turning my heart away from David.
Well, one thing comes to mind immediately - BEJEWLED BLITZ has got to go. I am addicted to this game and will play it rather than spend time with David. One of my excuses is that it helps me kep my wits and makes me think. Well, baloney, it's just plain fun, but it steals time away from my relationship, so, goodnight sweet Bejewled Blitz, parting is such deep sorrow (it's not sweet, I'll miss it and plan on not coming back).
Result:
I so want to play Bejewled, but know I need to stay away. Successful so far. Pray for me, I'm an addict.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Day 22 - Love Dare - Love is Faithful
Dare:
Choose today to be committed to love even if David has lost most of their interest in receiving it. Say to him today in words similar to there, "I love you. Period. I choose to love you even if you don't love me in return."
Wow, that sounds more like David to me than me to David. I don't always choose to show David the love he deserves, yet I am always aware of his love for me. I'll have to really look at this one and pray. I do need to tell David this.
Results:
Okay, so today we went up for Emmalee's birthday party in Victorville. That meant 1 1/2 - 2 hours in the car each way. That gave us lots of time to talk. I told David on the way home that I was going to tell him that when I look at other couples I just know how much I love him. But then that isn't really true. I love him because I love him. There is no comparing how I love him with how others love each other. He is my soul mate and God put us together. It cheapens my love to compare it to others. My love for David should only be measured against the love that God has for me.
Choose today to be committed to love even if David has lost most of their interest in receiving it. Say to him today in words similar to there, "I love you. Period. I choose to love you even if you don't love me in return."
Wow, that sounds more like David to me than me to David. I don't always choose to show David the love he deserves, yet I am always aware of his love for me. I'll have to really look at this one and pray. I do need to tell David this.
Results:
Okay, so today we went up for Emmalee's birthday party in Victorville. That meant 1 1/2 - 2 hours in the car each way. That gave us lots of time to talk. I told David on the way home that I was going to tell him that when I look at other couples I just know how much I love him. But then that isn't really true. I love him because I love him. There is no comparing how I love him with how others love each other. He is my soul mate and God put us together. It cheapens my love to compare it to others. My love for David should only be measured against the love that God has for me.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Day 21 - Love Dare - Love is Satisfied in God
Dare:
Be intentional today about making a time to pray and ready my Bible. As I do, immerse myself in the love and promises God has for me.
Sounds simple enough - I need to not just stick this time into an already busy day. I need to do it and stick my busy day around this.
Results:
Man, ended up taking a nap. The prayer part was not so hard because I just need me and God, but I didn't carry my Bible to the places I needed to go. I was so tired and we had activities to fill the rest of the day. I got my priorities wrong. FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!
Be intentional today about making a time to pray and ready my Bible. As I do, immerse myself in the love and promises God has for me.
Sounds simple enough - I need to not just stick this time into an already busy day. I need to do it and stick my busy day around this.
Results:
Man, ended up taking a nap. The prayer part was not so hard because I just need me and God, but I didn't carry my Bible to the places I needed to go. I was so tired and we had activities to fill the rest of the day. I got my priorities wrong. FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 1, 2010
Day 20 - Love Dare - Love is Jesus Christ
Dare:
Dare to take God a His Word. Dare to trust Jesus Christ for salvation.
I am saved by His Blood. I do try to stray at times, but He brings me right back. I am in His hands and He won't let me go. I need to remember His love for me and how He showed it with His sacrificed.
Wow, half-way through. What will the next 20 days bring? I hope I am reinforced in what is being developed.
Results:
Today was really rough, actually I should say tonight. The day was okay. Then we went with some friends to someone's birthday part, dinner and a movie. I am ashamed to say I said some things about David's driving and I shouldn't have. I'm ashamed.
At dinner time David started with the sarcastic, biting meanness. I don't think he realizes he does it, or maybe he does. I did as I normally do, just sit there and smile. But one of our friends did defend me. That's always the way it goes. I think I'm being the nice wife by not responding but my feelings are getting hurt. I really need to talk to David about how that makes me feel rather than just sit there and take it and get more hurt. I shouldn't be letting people defend me, plus when David does that, and I just sit there and take it, I think it makes him look bad and me look like the martyr. Not the way a marriage should be.
So, there it is. I've put it out there, now I need to do something about it.
Dare to take God a His Word. Dare to trust Jesus Christ for salvation.
I am saved by His Blood. I do try to stray at times, but He brings me right back. I am in His hands and He won't let me go. I need to remember His love for me and how He showed it with His sacrificed.
Wow, half-way through. What will the next 20 days bring? I hope I am reinforced in what is being developed.
Results:
Today was really rough, actually I should say tonight. The day was okay. Then we went with some friends to someone's birthday part, dinner and a movie. I am ashamed to say I said some things about David's driving and I shouldn't have. I'm ashamed.
At dinner time David started with the sarcastic, biting meanness. I don't think he realizes he does it, or maybe he does. I did as I normally do, just sit there and smile. But one of our friends did defend me. That's always the way it goes. I think I'm being the nice wife by not responding but my feelings are getting hurt. I really need to talk to David about how that makes me feel rather than just sit there and take it and get more hurt. I shouldn't be letting people defend me, plus when David does that, and I just sit there and take it, I think it makes him look bad and me look like the martyr. Not the way a marriage should be.
So, there it is. I've put it out there, now I need to do something about it.
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