Dare:
Ask myself what David would want if it was obtainable. Commit this to prayer and start mapping out a plan for meeting some (if not all) of his desires to whatever level I possibly can.
Just the other day David was talking about a trip he wanted to take in the Spring. I put him on a different path because I didn't want to go there. I was thinking it would be my vacation too, why should I go somewhere I didn't necessarily want to go when we had talked about so many other places before. I need to back up because it's obviously something he wants to do. So, okay, Ill start working towards that trip. In the meantime, there are lots of little things I can do. He likes it when I just sit with him or go with him for drives. That's easy stuff, but I usually grumble. No more grumbling. It's something David likes to do and I love him. I can give up time for him.
Results:
I have to confess - I was ready to throw everything I've learned the past 38 days out the door when I got home last night. I had laryngitis and was not feeling great anyway and found the dishes in the sink, kids toys everywhere, and everyone just sitting around. I walked in the bedroom to take off my shoes and David said there are a couple of cans of soup on the counter in the kitchen (meaning, heat up the soup and serve it). Normally I would have thought about getting the cans of soup and throwing them at David, but in reality I still would have heated them up and, grouchily, served David soup (not on his head as I would have liked). Instead, I went to the kitchen and did the dishes (I hate cooking anything when there are dirty dishes). Next I was planning to heat up the soup, but then David came in the kitchen and heated up some meat pies for us instead. So, even though I didn't have the best thoughts in my head last night, they weren't as bad as they used to be. I didn't make any snide comments and I didn't spend the night fuming quietly. The dishes were done and I had a nice warm meal.
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